Yesterday was not a good day. In addition to all my normal responsibilities, I felt the added pressure of the pending job and my commitment to the Vibrational Millionaire Program.
Every imaginable cockroach, internal and external, poked its head into my space, feelers undulating. Every doubt and worry. Relationships I've long since known were bad news.
I finally surrendered to ordering (what it turned out was bad) Chinese food, watching movies with the kids, and going to bed before they did.
Today I woke up with my vibe (the way I felt about myself and my life) exactly where I left it when I went to bed the night before. Thanks to my dear friend, Kitty Coleman, for teaching me that when you wake up in the morning, you pick up your vibe where you last left it.
So I have a few tricks up my own sleeve.
This morning I started playing one of my own healing games, the "1% Better" game.
The idea is that no matter how bad you feel, no matter how hopeless things seem, you can find a way to feel 1% better. I realize this is not actually new thought, just my personal way to address it.
I crawled out of bed and went for my walk. One ... maybe even two ... percent better.
I wrote to the masterful Feel It Real team to let them know I was struggling, and I talked to my sister. Another 1% each.
In a moment, I'm going to take a shower, which is pretty much always good for a 2-5% vibe improvement.
But my son's up now so I'm letting him have first dibs on the shower while I finish my hand-over-hand climb to a better feeling blog.
While I can't say I welcome the backlash that I am experiencing toward my new feeling setpoint, I am familiar with it. In all aspects of life, change breeds resistance and some backsliding and you have to stay the course.
Another half a percent right there.
I know my personal patterns well enough to recognize that I am a tremendous quantum leaper, but then I turn around to see the distance I just traveled and I panic. The "who do you think you are?" negativity comes in. And the cockroaches.
I also know that by the time I hit 20% better, feeling better will take on a momentum of its own.